is for Alan

 is for Loved
is for Angel

 never to be forgotton






9th December 2005

Today we found out we were expecting you. Daddy was ironing his shirt, whilst I done the test, we never expected a postive, but it was there those two extra special lines.

I telephoned the doctor's and got an appointment for that morning. When I told Dr Baker,he picked me up and spun me around, he was as excitied as we where!!!

8th Febuary 2006

Our first scan.

Today was the first time we saw you, me, daddy and Rachael. Do you remember son, the way you waved and when Daddy spoke you turned your bum on him!!!! You were a little minx even then. The way we all laughed at you, and Daddy had a cob on!!! That's my boy! You were 13 weeks 2 days old.

22nd March 2006

Our 20 week scan.

My how you had grown.

Me and Daddy had both agreed that we weren't going to ask if you were a girl or a boy.
Rachael came with us. You didn't want to play with us, did you? You buried yourself right down low and turned your back on us!!! We were all trying to coax you to turn round. We were all laughing saying how camera shy you were, and as if to say to us 'sod you's' you tuurned over and opened your legs. It was hard not to see you were our little boy. We never said anything to all the family you were our surprise to them.

22nd March-26th July 2006

I had a really good pregnancy, just the usual morning sickness, backache, that sort of stuff. You kicked me constantly, usually at night!!!! Kept me awake!!!!

26th July 2006

You had moved all day, kicking, moving giving me heartburn!!! I couldn't leave the house without my Gaviscon!!!

It was a beautiful sunny day, Auntie Gill and Julie came around and we spent time in the garden, Rambo was playing with Daddy, (God that dog, the mischief it got up to).

Auntie Gill and Julie left at 9.45 and Daddy went to bed. We were sat in the conservertory me, you and Rambo, I decided to get a shower, I don't know why, but I think I knew I was going to go into hospital that night, call it mother's insintict.

When I got out of the shower you were doing your usual aerobics, you kicked right up until 10.50.

At 11.00 i felt a pain, then again 15 mins later. I went upstairs and woke Dadddy, I thought I was in labour.

I've never saw Daddy move so fast!!!!

He went to get ready, by time he came back, the pains where constant.
Daddy telephoned an ambulance.

When the ambulance came, they must have wondered what they had walked into, I was on the bed rolling and Daddy was all a fluster!!

When we got to Liverpool womens we were taken to the Princess Diana suite. A young midwife came in with the sonaid and placed it on my bump.

I heard nothing.

You were an angel. XX

The midwife kept on saying that the sonaid was broken, but I didn't believe her. Then I thought 'no I only heard your heartbeat on Monday and you had been kicking all day, so yes you are ok.

A doctor came to scan me, even at this point I believed he would find your heartbeat. He was really nice.

He scanned and scanned me. After a while he put down the scanner and said ' I'm sorry, your baby has passed away'.

Daddy started to cry.

After this son, I really don't remember much, and what I do, I don't want to talk about it, you know what happened. Mummy was very ill. And poor Daddy had to telephone everyone with our sad, sad news.

Daddy was amazing he was my ROCK, still is.

28th July 2006

Your Birthday

Alan Richard Sturgeon you were born today, at 2.30 a.m. You weighed 5lb 14oz's with your jet black curly hair, the famous Robbo nut nose and your eyelashes that any woman would pay for.

You were about a foot long, you would have been so tall, like your Uncle Richard, all the nurses called you Peter Crouch!!

You stayed with me and Daddy, laying next to us, those very special that will never leave our heart's. You were perfect. So handsome, so pure.

I never cried, don't know why, didn't want to believe that my son, was born sleeping.

You stayed with us till late on Saturday, both Nanny Janet & Nanny Ellen, Grandad Richard & Grandad Alan came to see you. It broke my heart seeing them hold you, kiss you knowing that this was our only time with you. Those very precious hours, you never left my side.

Everyone was coming to us, don't know what they said, everything is a blur.

10th August 2006

Your due date and funeral.

We laid you to rest son, let you go to sleep, I'll never forget you son, you'll always be our's to keep.

To Date

Alan is greatly missed by all his family

Mummy Jane

Daddy Alan

Brother Karl

Sister Claire

Sister Rachael

Grandad Richard

Grandad Alan

Nanny Janet

Nanny Ellen

Uncles Richard, Brian & Paul

Aunties Lisa, Gill & Sam

Cousins Laura, Paul, Georgia, Layla, Freya & India


Alan Richard Sturgeon came to us, touched our hearts, because of Alan, we will never be apart.

Love you with all our hearts.
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